Sunday, September 11, 2016

A good old fashioned Lexapro cry

Crying sucks.

I always try to stop it.  Since I am yakked up on 30mg of Lexapro I am usually successful. Always successful.  I feel the tears and I shut them off.

Therapist say cry = good.  Cry = release.  Cry = growth.

I say cry = surrender.  Cry = losing.  Cry = not in control.

This wkend was so long and so horrible.  Lydia is consuming all the oxygen in this house.

We walk around waiting for the bomb to explode.

It did and I sobbed like a momma should.  Man I really feel better but maybe it is because no one is home right now but me.


  1. Oh, that feeling of control...I so wish I had more control of things. I fooled myself into believing I did have control up in the time that infertility reared its ugly head. Been fighting for control and failing ever since. Sigh.

    Many hugs to you. Crying every once and again (or every day) doesn't mean you are weak, or a failure, or anything else that you might think like that. It means you care. It means you try. It means you're human. Xoxo

  2. I'm not much of a cryer either, but it sounds like your weekend needed at least one cry - maybe more. I'm sorry - sometimes the start of the work week is a relief!

  3. I'm a big crier, but not in front of other people, that I hate. But a good all by yourself cry, it's the best! Let it go Mama, you really do feel better afterwards.

  4. Full on crying gives me a headache. Also I don't like to do it in front of other people. But sometimes tears are a good release and help you to be in the moment with your feelings. Really when you think about it, what's the worst thing that can happen when you cry. Well, in my case a headache but otherwise it's harmless, while stress and substance use and other things that might result from intense emotions can be very harmful.

  5. Crying is such a strange thing... sometimes you can feel both your thoughts and the therapist's thoughts at once. I tend to save up my really hardcore tears for big jags every few months or so, when something triggers. Otherwise it's tamp tamp tamp. I think it's a good thing to let it out, even if feels like a loss of control. I'm sorry the day was so hard.